I never really meant to stop posting on this blog, but the rest of my life kind of took over. Settling into my new job (which now seven months later should probably just be referred to as, y’know, my job) the seemingly constant task of employing new assistants and trying to figure out what to do about my ongoing lack of suitable accommodation (if you want to know more about these other parts of my life in a separate blog let me know) I gradually started meditating less and less. It’s the usual story with me, the more I need to meditate the less I seem to have the motivation to actually sit down and do it. (Or at least just do it in my case).
This week I’ve decided to make an effort to get back into it. I’ve resubscribed to Headspace. There are a lot of other apps that I like but it just seems to be the way my brain works I need the structure to follow. Headspace, like meditation in general, leads to mixed experiences. Sometimes I feel much calmer and like it’s made a huge difference, other times I feel like it’s made very little difference, it just depends on the day and probably my mood. Still, the thing that always brings me back to Headspace is that I need to have a session to do every day in order to create that routine of meditating. I’ve talked about Headspace a lot previously, check out my old posts if you want more details.
It’s only been three days so far, but I already feel better. To be honest that’s probably because I no longer have the voice in my head telling me that I should be meditating, but whatever the reason it’s nice to have a head that feels even a tiny bit clearer.
This time I’m not going to make any promises about new starts or regular posts or practices to myself or you. I thought I would write this post to give myself one less thing to think about that I’m not doing.
Anyway, I will hopefully see you again soon if this motivation continues.